GUESS WHO'S BACK!

Well hello there.

I guess long time no see?

This has been a long coming post but the past couple of months have been so awful and stressful that I had practically no time to think about my blog, let alone writing a post.

I started off the year with great expectations – lots of posts, content, photos. And everything was so exciting up until the moment I realised my anxiety was taking over my life.
For the longest time my relationship with anxiety has ruined so many great things, but I feel like this year has probably been quite literally the worst one.

I've always been very anxious about everything I do, it is in my nature and I can deal with it. But the pressure of succeeding and finishing my second year of university, friendships going wrong, awful housemates (that story deserves a whole post, trust me!) and the pressure of keeping up a relationship had the best of me and I ended up finishing this academic year with a first overall (yay me!) but a very unwell mind.

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The One Where Alice Turns 20

Can this post be considered a part two? And if you have no clue of what I am talking about you should probably read this post right here.

But yes, as you can probably tell by the title, I turned 20 on Sunday. And what a beautiful weekend that was.

Started my early birthday celebration on Saturday when me and my pal Alice – I promised I am not referring to myself, went out for dinner. Italian of course, what else would you expect from me? Right after dinner we went to the Theatre to see a play, Shakespeare In Love to be more precise. Maybe not all of you are aware of the fact that I am basically obsessed with English Literature and that Shakespeare In Love is by far one of my favourite films of all times, so by this point you can imagine my excitement! The play was amazingly done and most of the lines were taken from the film – therefore I knew them by heart and couldn't help but acting along. Typical Alice.
Afterwards I went to my friend's pub and we waited until midnight with a bunch of people I didn't know that sang happy birthday to me. To be fair, 99% of them were pissed but still, that was nice and really out of tune haha! Needless to say we stayed up all night drinking and laughing and having a hell of a good time and that the actual day of my birthday I was too tired to do anything apart from eating what was left of the cake.

So yes, I am now 20. Technically not a teen anymore but still acting like one – did you have any doubts about it? Because I didn't. 
I don't really know how to feel because to be fair nothing's changed, it just feels really weird saying that I am now 20 years old. Almost too weird.
But that's life, and there's nothing I can do about it apart from enjoying it. 
What's really surprising is that only a year ago I was miserable but I got to spent my 19th birthday with my closest friends and family and now I am okay and got to celebrate this special day with people I didn't even know they existed up until 8 months ago. Weird how things can change in just 365 days. 
I don't know what to expect from this year, but I know I am ready for it :)

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The One Where Alice Doesn't Want To Turn 20

Spring is my favourite season and I wish it could be spring time all year long.

But spring means that my birthday is close. 18 days apart to be exact, but who's counting, right?! 

(hint: me. every. single. year.)

And this year my birthday is extra special because I officially stop being a teenager and turn 20. If only I was happy about it!

Truth is, I am quite scared of being considered officially an adult – people don't take you seriously if you're not at least 20, let's be real.

I am so used of calling myself a "teen" that this number now scares me a little bit. I guess everyone is scared of growing up in some sort of way, and usually nobody's ready when it happens.

Can I avoid it, then? No.

So, what can I do?

To be fair I don't have an answer, I feel like I am almost 20 and I haven't accomplished anything at all. Not that I'd expected to become anyone in particular by now – but it'd be nice to say I am happy to have accomplished a certain amount of things before my twenties.

So yeah, this is more of a rumbling post where I tell you how I am scared of growing old and how I am pretending it won't happen in two week's time. And please, do note my Friends' reference in the title – I know, I know. It's brilliant of course.

I reached a point in my life where I am both scared and excited at the same time. And that's okay, because I am still trying to figure out how that's possible. But I am sure of one thing: I am proud of the choices I've made during the past decade or so, I know I wouldn't be the person I am today if it wasn't for those decisions – both the good and the bad ones.

So that's me. Almost 20 and scared to death, but still here and proud to be! 

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